Story

For a few weeks, I was feeling exhausted, bloated, sickly and my breasts were becoming sore. I didn’t believe I was pregnant, but on 03/06/2011 at 8:00am, I took a home pregnancy test before I set off for work. To my disbelief, the test was positive. I was going to be a mummy! I felt overwhelmed, I cried with happiness and phoned my fiancé immediately while he was at work. I was hyperventilating I was so excited. We were both overjoyed and were already starting to plan for our future. I was 5 weeks pregnant.

We told our parents later that day and they were so excited they started making plans of their own, jokingly making baby sitting rota’s and dad was intent on calling the baby Steven if a boy and Stevie if a girl (after him). Shaun and I even had low level bickering over baby names. I loved every second of my pregnancy experience, even morning, noon and night sickness. I enjoyed watching my tummy grow and loved talking to my bump, which we nick named Mr Trump. In the following weeks I religiously filled in my ‘belly book,’ this was my pregnancy diary which I recorded my weekly feelings, baby’s growth, belly measurements, weight and the like. Me and my mum made shopping trips for baby clothes and dad took me window shopping for prams. I felt like the most luckiest girl in the world. 

Then on Tuesday 25/07/2011 at 1:00am, I started to get intense cramp like pain in my lower abdomen and I noticed bleeding. We went to A&E that instant, who advised me to take 2 paracetemol and rest. They booked me an appointment for a scan at the Early Pregnancy Assessment Unit (EPAU) for 26/07/2011. This was the day our world came crashing down around us. I lay on the bed while the sonographer located the baby. The silence was long and deafening, my partner held my hand while she said nothing, gazing into the screen. Then she turned to me and said, “I’m very sorry Victoria, the baby has no heartbeat”. I was 13 weeks pregnant, but my baby had not made it past 10 weeks, this was when the term ‘missed miscarriage’ entered our vocabulary. Devastation hit everyone hard and I was blown away by grief.

That day I was sent home to discuss my options but thankfully Baby Bell was born naturally, on 26/07/2011 at 16:55. My precious sleeping angel, perfect in every way. Baby Bell was blessed that night by Chaplain and I was given a keepsake box, courtesy of Louis. This box put me in touch with the only support I’ve received to date, a charity for bereaved parents 4louis.

4louis have inspired me and my partner to set up our own charity 4babybell to continue their good work and try to improve the bereavement service in the NHS. Miscarriage is a taboo subject that no one seems to talk about but unfortunately it is an all too common event as 1 in 5 pregnancy’s end this way. 4babybell aspires to bring comfort to angels’ parents by providing memory boxes to hospitals across the North East to help them capture as many memories as they can. 

Raising money for

4Louis

4Louis

Charity Registration No. 1137843

4Louis aim to provide hospitals free of charge with memory boxes to be given to bereaved parents who suffer the trauma of stillbirth or neonatal death. Each box contains a clay impression kit for hand and feet imprints, teddy bears and an Angel, which signifies a born sleeping baby, and more

Donations 40

happy easter jamie and baby bell love yous so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Donation by claire on 19/04/14

£10.00

+ £2.50 Gift Aid

In memory of Molly Edmundson ~ 22nd April 2003 x x x x x

Donation by Julie Edmundson on 07/01/14

£30.00

+ £7.50 Gift Aid

In memory of Gracie Jepson 15.11.2013 17:25 Always in our thoughts.

Donation by Nanna & Grandad Jepson on 15/12/13

£100.00

+ £25.00 Gift Aid

In memory of Gracie Jepson 15.11.2013 17:25

Donation by Chris Jepson & Chloe Weatherhead on 27/11/13

£500.00

+ £125.00 Gift Aid

With Loving Hugs & Butterfly Kisses <3 x

Donation by Anonymous on 19/11/13

£2,000.00

+ £500.00 Gift Aid

Thank you so much for the beautiful Memory Box. In Memory of Nathan George Lynn 25/08/13.

Donation by Wendy Grey on 31/10/13

£50.00

+ £12.50 Gift Aid

Thank you so much for our beautiful memory box. It means so much to us. Keep up the good work. John and Paula

Donation by John and Paula on 21/10/13

£50.00

+ £12.50 Gift Aid

In memory of baby Stormy xXx you have wonderful Mummy :) Thank you Sarah x

Donation by Kerry cooper on 20/10/13

£10.00

+ £2.50 Gift Aid

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raffle tickets

Donation by mark dixon on 18/05/13

£5.00

+ £1.25 Gift Aid

Raffle tickets :) good luck tonight xxx

Donation by Anonymous on 18/05/13

£10.00

+ £2.50 Gift Aid

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In Memory of Baby Barker x

Donation by Tamsin Mills on 23/03/13

£30.00

+ £7.50 Gift Aid

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hi donation from my sales of baby loss bag charms - hope this helps x

Donation by karen atkinson on 14/03/13

£2.00

+ £0.50 Gift Aid

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hi donation from my sales of baby loss bag charms - hope this helps x

Donation by karen atkinson on 27/01/13

£2.00

+ £0.50 Gift Aid

Donation by DENISE LYNCH on 09/01/13

£50.00

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In loving memory of too many angels, from Neverland xxx

Donation by Clare Birkby on 31/12/12

£70.00

+ £17.50 Gift Aid

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Merry Christmas Jamie i couldnt buy you a present so have donated this money to a very special charity in your name. Jamie Steven Lowe 02/02/12.xx

Donation by linda lowe on 20/12/12

£30.00

+ £7.50 Gift Aid

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#Miscarriage:BreakTheSilence!

Donation by victoria smith on 12/11/12

£1,600.00

+ £400.00 Gift Aid

£30.00 collected from Bambino's Durham .

Donation by Dawn Tate on 11/11/12

£30.00

+ £7.50 Gift Aid

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Donation by victoria smith on 25/09/12

£279.14

+ £69.79 Gift Aid

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For Sarah, Darren & Stormy. Heartbroken for you both.

Donation by Willy on 23/09/12

£10.00

Just a little something to help,your amazing love ya tons miss Victoria sponge,xxxx

Donation by angela walton on 22/09/12

£5.00

+ £1.25 Gift Aid

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MISCARRIAGE: BREAK THE SILENCE

Donation by victoria smith on 22/09/12

£189.44

+ £47.36 Gift Aid

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Donation by victoria smith on 09/06/12

£67.00

+ £16.75 Gift Aid

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Donation by victoria smith on 09/06/12

£106.45

+ £26.61 Gift Aid

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Donation by Victoria Smith on 25/05/12

£350.00

+ £87.50 Gift Aid

Donation summary

  • * Online donations£8,862.78
  • Offline donations£0.00
  • Text donations£0.00
  • Total raised£8,862.78
  • Gift Aid£2,183.20

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