As a fair few of u know, i completed along with Anna and Andy Ayles in september 2010 a "3 peaks in 3 days" event for the Forest holme charity in poole where both Andy's and my own mother passed away at seperate times..! The event was hard and none of us trained for it, we experienced all types of weathers throughout the mountains of Ben Nevis, Scaffel pike and Snowdon. I scattered my mumma's ashes when i reached each mountain top, we have a huge album full of pics showing every step of the way!
Those of you who knew my mum will know what a very special lady she was and that she did alot to raise money for charities like this one.. she was an artist and she wrote poetry and childrens books, her talents were never ending! She spent 20 years in Australia, she went to school there and landed a career in modelling where she took part in tv adverts and many news paper articles.. she met my farther, fell in love and chose to have a child.. she was offered a part in "home and away" yet turned it down to give me the upbringing i would'nt change for the world!
When i was 9 my mum left my dad and found love again when i was 13 with my step dad who doted on her from the word go.. they shared a rare love that was ongoing! My mum gave birth to my little sister candy when i was 16. she was diagnosed a year later with breat cancer! the news was devastating but we caried on with hope in our hearts!
I could not have asked for a more nurturing mother, she was there for me when ever i fell, always gave the best advice although there were times i didnt take it.
She was a brilliant cook and she had the most uncontrollable humour haha.
Carol (my beautiful mummy) battled cancer for 11 years following everything by the book health wise and deeper, she was so positive throughout and still managed to put everyone 1st in every situation!
i am not just saying this because she was my mother im saying it because its true.. maybe she was taken because she was too good for this world. We will never know the reasons as to why certain people are taken earlier than others but one thing i do know is that we will all see the people we love who have left us again some day.. they have just gone on along holiday.
My mum was my best friend and i fought along with her as so did my little sister and step Dad.. i guess 11 years of fighting finally took its toll for her! The cancer was wide spread infecting her breast, lungs, liver, bones, bowel and bladder, she eventually developed jaundice and died from the poisoning.. she cried yellow tears it was soul destroying!
9 full days spent in the hospice, i didnt leave her side unless my step dad and little sis were there, but i feared if i had gone too long she would leave! i would climb into her hospice bed with her every night and hold her til morning so that if she did pass in the night then she would'nt be alone!
I never thought she would leave, writing this story is so hard without all the mind numbing memories flooding back.. we watched her go from being the bright, shining, bubbly, constantly smiling, hyperactive and BEAUTIFUL woman.. to using a walking stick, depression, wheelchair, panic attacks, hospital and in a short time.. the hospice. She told me if she ever ends up in the hospice then she would not be coming out.. i was therefore reluctant to having her go in, but she insisted!
The nurses at the hospice were like no other nurses i have met. They were so attentive and there hearts were huge! They would hug her and cater for her every need and they would also act in the same way for the families! i will never forget the way they treated us during that unbearable time in our lives, they are all angels in disguise and i hope they know it!
We hoped to raise over a grand for the forest holme but we only managed to raise over half so this page i have set up is to try and raise the rest.. we need your help.. i KNOW its Christmas and times are hard but if over 2000 people clicked "LIKE" on my previous page, then maybe those 2000+ people could find the time to donate just £1... then we would have reached ourselves a double goal and THAT my friends is what we are hoping for!
I know my mum would have wanted me to do this.
Help this charity help others and their families who are going through similar situations!
Thankyou so much for listening.. may the new year bring some hope to the suffering, and those who have suffered xx
