Thank you for visiting our page and considering a donation to Logan's Legacy - our baby son's memorial fund. 

We would like to take some time to tell you about our precious little boy. Thank you for reading. 

We learned we were expecting Logan in July 2019 and we were both absolutely over the moon. We had lost our first baby, a precious little girl who we named Leila, on 22nd May 2018 , at 16 weeks. I had some bleeding and when I was scanned there was no amniotic fluid, Leila's heart was still beating but we were told the dreaded news.... at that stage nothing could be done. 

Thus we were understandably anxious throughout the pregnancy with Logan and it was complicated by HG and constant bleeding. Logan's due date was the 20th of March 2020 , a very special date to us as it was my grandmother's birthday , it gave us hope. 

After a perfect 20 week scan at the start of November, we finally felt brave enough to tell our parents, but on the 28th of November 2019 Logan was born very suddenly at the gestational age of 23 weeks and 6 days, again due to preterm premature rupture of membranes. 

Fraser and I were already in love with our eagerly awaited baby but now we knew , a baby boy!  Oh so tiny and sweet, we were scared as he was so premature but relieved he had survived delivery and completely besotted and overwhelmed. The doctors were impressed he even tried to breathe for himself. Our little warrior had started his fight and he gave it his all. We told our friends and family , most of whom did not even know we were expecting. And we waited, anxiously ....

Of course at that age and size (700g) Logan was quickly whisked away to the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit and the amazing staff were able to stabilise him.

Logan was a warrior throughout his whole 26 days of life. But unfortunately the stress of being so tiny and so early was too much for his little body to bear. His lungs were underdeveloped and this meant lots of medical intervention to help him survive. He was on a ventilator since birth, had steroids, antibiotics, antifungals, blood tranfusions, diuretics and oh so many blood tests and intravenous and arterial lines... the list goes on. Unfortunately this all came with side effects.  He developed a line sepsis and an inflammatory bowel condition specific to premature babies called Necrotising Enterocolitis (NEC), even though he was extremely tolerant of his nasogastric feeds with expressed breast milk (which is usually protective). 

The RHC NICU team were nothing short of miracle workers. Logan's doctors, nurses and pharmacists worked tirelessly and with love, compassion and empathy to try and save his precious little life but unfortunately there are limitations to what can be provided to such a small baby and the side effects of treatment can detrimental.

Logan received all the care he possibly could and appeared to slowly be improving but unfortunately after a routine procedure Logan's heart rate drastically slowed and could not be improved despite resuscitation. That just showed how much of a warrior he was, he fought so hard but his little body had no reserves.

On the 23rd of December Logan passed away in comfort in our arms. Just one of a handful of absolutely precious times we had been able to hold him. We cuddled and sang to him (that had always soothed him). We told him it was time to rest now and that he was a very good and brave little boy, it was the most heartbreaking moment any parent can ever experience. 

Fraser and I miss Logan every day, he is never more than one thought away and we carry his memory with us in everything we do. We have set up this memorial fund to honour our beautiful baby boy. In the hope that his legacy and important little life will continue to inspire love, kindness and generosity in others. 

We share Logan's very personal little story so that the funds raised can help  other families in the NICU.

We thank you all so very much for any contribution and to share the link with your friends and family . 

Lastly but importantly, baby loss of any description , including miscarriage, termination for medical reasons, stillbirth or neonatal death is still taboo and not often talked about,  unfortunately it is much more common than thought and most likely has affected you or someone you know. We encourage everyone to open the conversation, this improves education for all involved ; parents, healthcare workers and friends and family. Meaning people will better be aware of the options of treatment, support and bereavement support should the worst happen.

The donations from this memorial fund will go through the Glasgow Childrens Charity into the NICU fund as Logan's Legacy.

All our love, Logan's proud parents,  Natasha & Fraser Grimmond xXx