I am raising money so i can take care of my mum, since my dad passed away on october 2nd 2016 2 days before his birthday i have been working but it has become too much amd i need sometime away to take care of my mum as she has COPD, Osteoporosis, which my dad had and it ended up causing his death. I was watching the football with my dad on the sunday as we always do and had a laugh and he kept telling me to shut up as they have commentators, after the footy i came upstairs and watched 2012 the diaster movie and had my dads birthday card there but i thought ill give him it tomorrow. After the film had finished i went down stairs and said goodnight and kissed my mum and dad as i always do and went to sleep. My mum woke me up early hours monday morning to tell me dads not too good and i quickly put shorts and top on and ran to my dad he was by the front door as my dad had COPD and osteoporosis too he couldnt walk 2 feet without help or getting out of breath but he got to the door by himself my dad sat himself down with my help and he was panicking and i tried calming him and rubbing his back, after about 10 minutes my dad went into a fit and i shouted to mum to call 999 we were put on hold i laid my dad down put a cushion under his head and tried to give him mouth to mouth and CPR the paramedics came about 20 minutes later and worked on my dad for over an hour i just sat there and was lost and didn't know what to do i felt like i had failed him. They tried all they could and then took my dad in ambulance and when we got the hospital they said he has passed away i know my dad had gone before they took him out the house but i was hoping this wouldnt be the laat memory of my dad. I didnt want to leave him and couldnt stop crying my idol had gone, i never got to give him his birthday card and its been hard ever since but i had to get to work after the funeral to help mum out and havent had time to grieve and accept whats happened yet. My mum is ill too she had a small heart attack and now im scared of losing her too. Im raising money so that i can have some proper time with my mum and look after her and go out and do things as my dad waa housebound i lost the chance of that for the last 10 years of his life and i dont want that to be my last memories of my mum so i thank you for taking time to read my story and if you could donatw that would mean alot i know theres alot of people going through tough times and im but a number but if i can make my mums time from now happy with memories and cherish my dads memory at the same time i would be forever grateful.