A grown woman living with parents. I feel trapped, encouraged not to work after a surgery and regularly told I’m mentally unwell and a disgrace, paranoid, crazy, a horrible lazy person. He is manipulative, controlling and gaslighting me regularly and I’m finally able to see him for what he is. I’m shocked, scared of how I have been so stupid to tolerate this and deeply embarrassed. I don’t want to be around this bully no longer. I can be such an outgoing person and more and more I’m not recognising the person I’m looking at in the mirror. I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning.

Nobody outside the home knows of this because he is the perfect man. I feel like I can’t link my Facebook or upload an image in fear of him seeing.

I have reached a point of no return tonight. I’m seeing the suffocating situation for what it is and I just want to run. I can’t seem to get out. I have no financial income and no way out. I’m so embarrassed even writing this that I’ve let it come to this point. I can’t reach out to anyone. Even writing this I feel guilty and ashamed of myself.

I have never done anything like this before, I have never reached out like this. I feel so selfish asking for anything but I’m slowly realising that I deserve to be happy and content in life.

I need to get out of here with my dog and find a place to live. I know that this isn’t even the start of this journey it’s just words right now but I am determined to think this strongly in future.

If this is ever seen or read by anyone all donations will go towards rent, bills, food etc. I just need to get on my feet.

Thank you for reading and I apologise for putting a dampener on your day.