Hi everyone. Thank you for supporting and following my fundraising page. 

Mys

This year has been a rollercoaster of emotions. earlier on in the year we found out we were expecting number 4....yes I hear you say no.4. Lucky isn't the word. We were and are Gifted and overjoyed with our family.

Coming up to our scan, the excitement was unbelievable. 5days before our scan date the worst was feared....our world was turning upside down!! 

We had lost our baby. My body/heart and soul ached.

Weeks passed. I woke with a severe eye migraine.  Nothing would budge. our girls woke and as usual they would climb into our bed. My husband went and walked our pup. 

The next I know my husband is back and calling an ambulance. My eldest daughter had tried contacting everyone and managed to call my brother and dad for help. Mummy wasn't feeling very well. 

Ambulance crew arrived and blue lighted me in with a suspected stroke. 

With the luck on my side it wasn't a stroke. The hospital called it a hemiplegic migraine. I was able to go home. 

My body/heart and soul still aching from our loss. 

My body was telling me to stop and collapsed again 3days later. Admitted in and not knowing what was happening I kept having episodes where my body was paralysed and could not talk. 

 Days and weeks passed. Grieving for my little one. I knew I had to stop and be able to care for my girls. 

Stress courses were put in place and I attended.

I was then told about reiki. I didn't know anything about it or a believer. Wow how I was wrong and how I am a believer now. I got to walk and see my baby and hold her tight and be able to sit in those bluebell woods with her on a bench aLong side my old girl (dog) poppy. The pink blanket she was wrapped in. The face, those tiny hands. My little girl. 

She will live on forever in my heart and she will grow alongside my pup poppy. One day we will be together and mummy will hold you tight.

I'm doing this for you my angel. 

With the thanks of friends and family I am able to do this to raise money for an amazing cause.

Please please if you can sponsor me and the Ipswich hospital baby bereavement team i would've most greatful. 

Thank you again

Much love.