This is the hardest thing for me to do.
I've never been happy with my body, gaining excess weight but losing 10 stone, I have excess skin that I am desperate to get rid of. Over the past 4 years I have gone to the doctors numerous times, asking for help but constantly getting rejected. This has a massive impact on my mental health, more than I could have ever realised and without the surgery, I'll never escape it.

My mental health has deteriorated and has resulted in putting some weight back on, but I'm more determined than ever to get rid of it and complete my journey. I'm desperate to have the surgery but without anyone's help I'll never be able to do it myself, being stuck in a cycle of hating myself with no way forward.

Having surgery would make such a difference to my life, as I'll finally be able to look at my body and not feel disgusted from what I see and finally feel not like the fat person I have always felt like. I want to feel good in my own skin and not be ashamed of myself anymore.
I'm a private person and to tell everyone something so personal has been really hard for me and when I receive negative feedback, what is something I had always expected it, but when it does happen, it sends my anxiety sky high and knocks my confidence. I'm constantly asking myself am I being stupid for putting this out there for the world to see? I know I'm right for doing this as I have had a lot of kind worlds from people and the small minority won't stop me from achieving my goal.
On the exterior I look fine people say, but no one can see how you are on the inside, and inside I'm tearing myself apart. I've never hated myself more, for what I have done to myself and what I look like, I'm constantly reminding myself of what I have done and I can't start to love myself until this journey is complete. I know it's not going to be swift but I've come this far and I'm prepared to go the journey.

Thank you from the bottom of my families hearts for your help