I am doing a skydive in memory of my son Kai, all donations will be going to Princess Royal Maternity Baby Fund (neonatal unit) to help other sick babies in their fight for life.  I want to help out & that is why I am throwing myself out a plane 10,000 ft in the air! WISH ME LUCK xxx

all donations are muchly appreciated <3

Everyone who knows of my precious angel, will know I am trying to hard to raise money for Princess Royal Maternity Neonatal Intensive Care Unit, in memory of my gorgeous little Kai.  11 June 2012 @ 1.37am my life changed forever! This is the day I met my gorgeous little boy Kai – 17 weeks before he was due he weighed a tiny 1lbs4oz.. when his daddy & I got to see him, his daddy said “he’s perfect isn’t he” & that he was, so small – so perfect! My little prince fought miraculously hard for 15 days.  Kai was born at exactly 23 weeks gestation,  was the hardest but happiest 15 days of my life – I will cherish them in my heart forever! Most amazing gorgeous little man.  During his stay he had numerous blood transfusions, brain scans & blood tests. His daddy & I thought he was going to be ok after all he was 'our little fighter'  I was cleaning Kai's mouth, his breathing tube was a bit stained I told the nurse this & she told me it would be too stressful to change his tube. Tuesday 26th June 2012 I phoned the hospital around 8am to see how our boy was overnight the nurse told us he wasn't very well, when we reached the hospital the nurse told us they have to change his breathing tube as they think there may be a hole in it I didn't think back to the nurse telling me it would be too stressful for him I just wanted our gorgeous boy to be ok - as we thought he would be fine I then told nurses I would go & wait in waiting room until they changed his tube & his daddy went to the bank. In the waiting room the nurse came round a short while later & said "Wheres daddy, Wheres Scott?" I said "he's away to the bank.." she said "you have to get him quick, we are trying to resucitate Kai!" I then called Kai's daddy, when he answered I said "you have to come quick, they are trying to keep him alive!!" I then through my purse & jacket to the floor & ran up to the neonatal intensive care unit where my boy was, seeing his little body on the bed lots of nurses & doctors round him I explained to the doctor his daddy was on his way, I kept shouting "come on Kai, please, please, please!!" & calling out his name & hoping our boy would be ok. The doctors were pumping oxygen into my boys lungs through his 'new' tube & giving him adrenalin injections to keep his little heart beating, the doctor then turned to me & said "I'm sorry Nicole there is nothing we can do we have been trying for over 30 minutes now.." I said "No, please can you just keep trying please!" she said would you like to take his hand, I took my precious babys hand & I knew it was all too much for him, when his daddy arrived the doctors wrapped our boy up in hid Winnie the Pooh blanket & placed him in my arms. He sadly became an angel at 2.47pm on 26th June 2012. I now think what if my boy didn't get his breathing tube changed that day would he still be with us today.. but I can't keep thinking 'what if' I know my boy was in pain & he is now at rest, I will never forget his gorgeous little face! Sleeptight son x