On Tuesday 21st July at 16:31, our beautiful little Cici Rose Boyle made her entrance into the world, 8 weeks early, unfortunately she decided that she was just to perfect for this world, and grew her wings. Now a lot of people automatically think “oh what was wrong with her.” Let me stop that thought, there was absolutely nothing wrong with her and I felt completely fine. This is why I want to share our story.

Still birth. A subject no one really wants to talk about, yet a subject that should be spoke about. One thing a lot of people do to say to us is “I just don’t know what to say” Truth is, there is nothing you can say or do that will ever take the pain away. You can’t ever imagine what we are feeling or going though unless you unfortunately have to walk in our shoes. All you can do in a situation like this, is let them know you are there.

On the morning Cici was born, I phoned the hospital about some concerns I had with some blood. (bearing in mind, I had been there 2 weeks before with the same issue) However, this time I knew it was different, they say it’s mother’s instinct. I walked into the hospital as if everything was fine, then next minute I was told, on my own because of COVID, our little Cici was gone, the alarms were going and around 10 people from the labour ward rushed in. This was literally the scariest moment of my life and all I wanted was Ciaran. Luckily I got to see Ciaran for 10 seconds before I was rushed down for an emergency c section as a category 1.

We lost our beautiful angel to a complete placental abruption. This is something you can not prevent from happening, and I was not classed as a high risk pregnancy. The cause of a placental abruption is unknown. A placental abruption occurs when the placenta partly or completely separates from the inner wall of the uterus, which blocks the supply of oxygen to the baby.

The team at Northampton hospital gave us the best after care we could have hoped for given the circumstances. The midwives here are AMAZING!! The snowdrop room we stayed in was funded by SANDS, and is used by families who are having to experience late pregnancy loss. The privacy of the room offers families to spend precious time with their babies, creating invaluable memories.

By a way of saying thank you, and also helping any other parents that have to go though what we did, I am hoping to raise some money for Northamptonshire SANDS which cover Northampton and Kettering hospital.

On October 10th I will be doing a sky dive at Hinton skydiving centre at 12:30 in memory of our beautiful little angel born sleeping. Please note I have paid for the sky dive myself so all the money raised will go straight to Northamptonshire SANDS.

I would like to raise as much as possible, however I appreciate that times are hard at the moment, so any donation, no matter how small is very much appreciated.