On Feb 14th 2017 I was 8 weeks pregnant with twins. I learnt I was suffering my first miscarriage. It was unexpected and totally heartbreaking. 

In May 2018 I experienced another miscarriage at 8 weeks. At this point I knew there was something medically wrong with me. I spoke to Tommy's who agreed to test me,  after lot's of blood tests, I was then diagnosed with a condition called Lupus, an autoimmune disease. Lupus has many side effects & one of them was attacking my babies. 

Tommy's then put me on a medical plan & was told I will need to use Heparin blood thinners & Malaria tablets as soon as I become pregnant again. We were hopeful!

I then became pregnant in 2019,  we passed the 8th week mark & were pleased that the plan was working, we were finally able to get excited about this pregnancy. We went to our 12 week scan full of joy, then our world came shattering down. We were told our baby girl was not well & will pass away at any point. I was walking around, trying to get on with my life as normal as possible but it was hard, knowing that the baby you are carrying is going to pass away at any point was just an awful feeling that I can never describe. I under went surgery at 16 weeks & gave birth to my little girl. We were totally devastated, this was for sure the hardest time of our lives. At this point I could not see a light at the end of the tunnel, I felt very alone & sadly suffered from depression or it may of been grief. Still today, no one knew how I was feeling, as I was hiding my feelings from everyone because no one knew what we were going through. I was walking around at work, seeing friend's & family, pretending I was totally normal, when really I was feeling very low & wanted to breakdown in tears.

Tommy's kept reassuring us that this was just pure bad luck after completing our genetic tests. They also referred me to counselling sessions. This helped me a lot. I was finally able to open up about how I was feeling & talk about the situation.

 A couple of months later we decided to try again. We decided this will be our final try. It was a very hard decision for us to decide that we wanted to try again. We were told our next pregnancy will be ok.

I fell pregnant, 9 months of being constantly anxious, our Rainbow baby finally arrived in August 2021 - Siyan Rai (nbow) Pindoria 🌈 ❤

It was the hardest 3 years of my life and I honestly had no idea how I'd picked myself up again, but I did. I had the most important people supporting me & that was my family and Tommy's. Without them this would of been even more difficult for me. I will never forget the pain & grief we went through.💔

 After 3 years of this traumatic journey, I decided to run the London Landmark Marathon. This charity has helped me through the most difficult times. I am doing this for my four Angles 👼 & for Tommy's, who is a charity that is close to our heart ❤

I finally have the strength & courage to talk about this & share my experience to everyone. Baby loss is such a taboo subject & not often talked about.

 We would be grateful if you can sponsor us with even the smallest amount for this great cause 🙏👼💛 

To our baby girl, our twins & our angel. I will always carry you in my heart 💛👼👼👼👼💛