The day Mark died, 4 years ago, Chloe and I lost our future. We have a different future now and that's ok, but it still hurts. There are days when you feel like you've been hit by a bus, because you realise he's not coming back. There are days when you can smile and laugh and remember. There are moments when you pick up the phone to call him and days when you wake up and think he's still there. There always will be a hundred moments of joy, as I watch his daughter grow, that I wish I could share with him.

I'm not the only one hurting, his family, his friends and my family and friends are too. Cancer tears holes in the lives of so many, but it doesn't need to. We can beat cancer, through research. Cancer Research are the world's leading charity dedicated to doing just that. Please donate, it would mean the world to me. Thank you xx