My name is Catherine ( Kate ) Carson, and I ask you to take a few minutes of your time to read my story. In November 2006 I found out I was pregnant I was 20 shocked to say the least even devastated was an understatement. As my pregnancy progressed so did my excitement and when the told me I was having a little girl I was over the moon, its funny how things change in just a couple of months…so the next few months were filled with buying pink everything and prams and cots it was the most scary yet exciting thing id ever done. So on the 24^th  of august 2007 I went into labour and 26 hours later, they placed a little tiny girl with a scrunched up face a little button nose and little rose bud lips, 7pounds 13oz on my chest and the swell of love I felt for this little girl made me want to burst, I cant really explain the love you have for your children but if you have a child you would know.

 

I name my little girl Lacey-Claire and over the next few months as she grew really fast her big bright blue eyes and blonde hair and cheeky little smile made me the luckiest and happiest mum alive.

 

We got a new house and on march 12^th we sent lacey to her granny’s until we done her room up with pink and lemon fairy paper, so at 8 o’clock on the 13^th we headed back down to our new house to set up her cot and a few we things like glossing and then we would have been ready to move in.

 

Covered in paint I heard my phone ringing, I can remember thinking aww if its important they will ring back , so two mins later they rang back and not rushing my self I went into my bedroom and lifted my phone , Claire flashed up my sister. “ hello “ and I very hysterical Claire crying and babbling told me to get to the royal hospital fast , and the line went dead, I started to panic thinking something had happened to my gran I rang her back …. What’s wrong? Who is it? What’s wrong? She replyed Its Lacey shes dead. Well I could never in million years try to explain the feeling I felt at that moment she was only 7 and half months old at first I thought they had got it wrong, lacey wasn’t sick she was a healthy little girl no illness no disability nothing, so my dad rushed me to the hospital and running threw the a and e eyes blurring with tears I didn’t even need to say anything the nurse showed me to a room were Andy lacey’s daddy and my husband held my little girl with tubes and all sorts of lines coming out of her with his head bent crying and at that very moment I felt empty…. The big warm feeling that my little girl had give me was replaced by a big black hole it physically hurt like id been punched in the stomach.  I never felt so angry in my life, why such a little girl, she had her whole life ahead of her , what had happened here , who killed her? Did her granny drop her? Leave a blanket over her face? Who is reasonable for taking my girl from me????? The next few days were a blur many visitors all came to give there condolences and show support. On around the 3^rd day the police showed up and still angry I had a mountain of questions for them , who done this , there could have been more done , I they started to explain that my little angel had died of cot death … that confused me even more I thought that only happened in the 60’s . Are you sure I replied are you sure she was dropped smothered hit??? I was looking for someone or something to blame, the simple reply was if it was something else Mrs. Carson there would be a murder inquiry and there wasn’t. My baby was taken from me and there was no reason for it , she just stopped breathing.

 

The reason am telling my story is because this august my little girl would have been 4 and I want to do a fundraiser on the 25^th/08/2011, to raise awareness of cot death and also raise money for the charity fsids, foundation of sudden infant death. I would like to help this charity help others understand this and maybe one day they will have enough funds to do all the research they need to do to prevent this.. as it stands they don’t know much about it. Having my 2^nd baby sids were heavily involved in giving my monitors to monitor my little boys breathing and heart rate and if it slowed right down an alarm went off , having a 2^nd child was scary as you can imagine but I had a girl come round from sids every other day to talk to me the charity is fantastic but almost always overlooked.  ( my little boy will be 2 in may)

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