My name is Andy and during 2017 I almost committed suicide.

For many this is a point of embarrassment; for me it was for a long time. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my memorable life. I still suffer from these conditions today.

During 2017 I reached an absolute low point. My wife left me. My job was stale. My friends were looking after their new families. I felt alone. I vividly remember being sat at the computer I type this on now researching the best ways to end ones life without needing to leave the house (I was too embarrassed and ashamed...).

I did not end my life.

I never want to feel like that again. I never want anyone to feel like that ever.

So I have decided to break the stigma attach to mental health and to talk openly about my illness, how it affects me and the ones I love and care for and how I cope with it each day.

Suicide is the single biggest killer of men under the age of 45 in the UK and I want to do what I can to help prevent it!

I am not a trained professional (in any of this). I have no appropriate skills or backgrounds. I just know that the one thing that kept me going through my darkest times was talking to people.

I will be here. 

I will listen. 

I will talk. 

I will try to entertain. 

But most importantly, I will be here.

You can find my Twitch stream at https://www.twitch.tv/miz7. I stream regularly on Wednesday, Thursday and Sunday nights and as popularity grows I will try to add more dedicated and regular time. Outside of this I will stream ad hoc but will always try to keep people updated via Twitch or in my Discord channel found at https://discord.gg/47mZb8q.

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