My Story -  I was over the moon to find out I was pregnant with my first baby at the age of 17, scared,nervous but excited.

I started buying clothes and bits and bobs early on in the pregnancy, I'd lie in bed singing away, thinking of how exciting the future is going to be. I had my first scan and everything was all good. My bump started growing from 16 weeks pregnant which I loved, I loved showing it off to my family and friends. It came to my 20 week scan to find out I was having a healthy little boy😍💙 he was growing fine, everything was good, and his name is Kayden💙 it all started to become more real, then 23 weeks and 5 days pregnant, I woke with pains,not thinking much of it, I carried on day to day basic routine, and the pains had became stronger by half 10, 11 in the morning, I was reassured that it was just braxton hicks, I went to my bedroom to have 5 minutes sit down as the pains were getting unbearable, my gut feelings was that I was in labour so I shouted my Aunty up to me and she got on to the phone to the hospital, which they had asked several questions, if my waters had gone, if I'd had any blood loss,  lack of movement, and all the answers were no, so they had told me to go up to the hospital to be checked over...

I literally couldn't move off my bed that I was in that much pain, I had to be helped downstairs, when I got to the bottom of the stairs I had collapsed. My Aunty had rang the ambulance and whilst on the phone to them, my waters went. I couldn't stop crying with pain and fear.

What was happening and why was it happening, why me ?

The ambulance had arrived, confirmed that my waters had gone, confirmed I had blood loss, they rushed me up and by the time I had got there, the pains had eased off. So the nurses had checked for a heartbeat and he was still there💙 within 10 minutes of checking me over, everything started again and the sudden erge of needing to push, he came out feet first, and they took him away to a machine, I looked to my mum and asked why isn't he crying?, is he okay?, and then they came over with the dreaded news..

'I'm sorry there is nothing we can do'

All I remember is screaming and crying hysterically,

I don't know why it happened and that's something that I will never get answers for, but SANDS Charity gave me something to remember him by, they had given me a forget me not box, which had his blanket in,teddy bear, birth certificate, hospital bands, they were so lovely and now nearly 5 years on, I am ready to give something back, I want to raise as much money as possible by shaving my hair off on the 30th November 2017 which marks Kaydens 5th birthday



https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/natasha-callear