We only went and smashed it! Today would have been Kimberley's 31st birthday and this seems like the most fitting day we have, to announce our total!

Happy birthday Sweetheart. One day, we will be reunited and can party together like we used to!

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts, to each and every one of you, who have been there with us all, through the tears (and there have been many) and the laughter (and there has been lots) . We could not have done it without you and your help!

People have been so kind and generous, and your continued support over the past 10 years, has made us, as a family feel humble and eternally grateful.

My friend Sarah (Manager of Ashgate Hospicecare's Matlock shop) has a Son called Freddie, who is a fine young man, and on hearing about Kim, he has decided to do a very gruelling 20 mile bike ride (Kim was 20 when she passed) and donate his Sponsor money to Kim's fund. Please sponsor him! His link is on his Mum's face book page (Sarah Barker) 

www.justgiving.com/fundraising/robert-brassington1

 So you see Kim, your legacy just keeps carrying on through others, and inspires other young people to become fundraisers of the future. You would have loved that, I know!

Happy birthday Sweetheart, I will always love you equal! xxx Your Mum

17.04.19 Firstly. I'm very aware that I haven't updated our "story" on here for a very long time. Two reasons for that, one is, your "story" ended nearly 10 years ago, very sadly, and it seems inappropriate, to keep trying to update it. Secondly, I used your page originally, as an out pouring of all my thoughts, feelings and emotions. I guess you could say, a bit like telling a counselor, all your thoughts etc. It REALLY helped me, and it also felt like I was talking to you, and keeping you close to me. I am very glad that I wrote what I wrote, but I could never re-read it all, as it would be way too painful for me. I tried once, but it hurt too much. If I could, I'm sure it would reinforce, just how far I have come since your passing, and all our family and friends.  

Life moves on, whether we like it or not. Not one day goes by, that I don't think of you and smile, so proud to have been your Mum, your friend, and had the privilege of your company for 20 years. I miss you so very much Kim. We shared so much, good times and bad (all our trips to the Hospitals in Sheffield, the car went on auto pilot, didn't it!) we always just got on with it, and talked through our plans, goals, hopes and dreams. You were so strong and courageous, making time lines, and writing goodbye letters to us all. I have never met anyone like you and don't expect to either. You were unbelievable with the strength and foresight you used, and showed.  A true inspiration. 

So Kimberley, one sunny afternoon, when you were in Ashgate Hospice, asleep, I took a much needed walk round the garden to get some fresh air and to clear my head. I ended up laid on my back, staring at the sun, feeling numb, exhausted and devastated. Someone asked if they could join me, turned out to be Mark, one of the porters (he did so much more than that!) we ended up calling him mankini Mark because he offered to wear one and run up and down the lawn outside your room, to raise money for the Hospice, if it would make you smile. He wasn't allowed to (obvious reasons lol) Mark and I got talking and he explained how much money the Hospice needed to run each day, week, month, year. It astounded me. So much money as the Hospice is only partially funded by the Government. He also said that the big donations of around £100,000 really made a difference, as the Hospice could then plan, and put in place new things like new beds or new rooms etc. This really struck a cord with me and it was exactly then that I decided I would aim for a target goal of £100,000 for your memorial fund. I know that you never wanted anyone to know that you had cancer four times, or that you were poorly sometimes, you always put your make up on, put you going out clothes on (or fancy dress every chance you had) faced the world, and made the most of every day you were given, but when you knew for definite that you hadn't got long left, you told me that, if your story would make a difference and could help anyone in any way, to use it. I have Kim. It guts me every time but I have.

This year on the 6th of July, it will be exactly 10 years to the day that you left me/us. We will all be walking for you on the Sparkle Walk. I/we need to raise just over £10,000 to fulfill the vow and promise I made, that sunny day, in the garden of Ashgate Hospice, and nothing will stop me, from raising the last part of my pledge in your beautiful memory.

Becks is always finding new ways to help us reach our target, and I know you would be so proud of her efforts ( I am!) Becks is looking after my picture of you (I am missing it very much but know it's in safe hands) Ross and your Dad come to all our events, as do Aunty Caz, Uncle Mick and ALL your/our friends and family. We have welcomed new babies (gorgeous little Oliver, Hannah and Nicks baby and Nic Davies has one on the way) and been so happy at birthdays, christenings, weddings and lots more social events (there's always a gut wrenching feeling in my tummy though, because you should have been there, experiencing these life events. I try to take on board your calm voice telling me to be strong, and accept what I can't change. Everyone has tried so very hard, and been so supportive and generous. I can't thank every single one of them enough. 

I have the final letter you wrote to me, next to the bed and I read it every morning. I know how hard it was for you to write it, and every single day, I appreciate your words of wisdom and encouragement. You keep me going Kim! Every day, I try to do my work for Ashgate, and yours too (I'm tired lol) 

I have sold Butterfly House. It was time, and I know you will understand. It has taken me 10 years to make the right decisions, as to what to do with your things (your voice keeps echoing in my head.... Mum/Trace, I would have sold that by now, Mum I would have moved by now etc.) You see, you still help me every day Kim. I did some special things just for you before I left though.

So very many things I miss about you Sweetheart.

The Sparkle Walk on the 6th of July, 10 years to the day, will be all about you, for me. "I love you Kim" "I love you more" "tell you what then, lets love each other equal" Your Mum xxx

09.09.17 Hey Sweetheart, it will be your birthday on Monday. Another one that we aren't together for, that I will be wondering where you are, about life after death, God, Heaven, the others we have lost and various other deep stuff (it does that to you!) It has been a hard year for me Kim in various ways but a lot of your friends are settling down, getting married and having babies. I'm truly happy for them, but each one makes me think of you, and how lucky the man you ended up with,would have been, and what an amazing Mum you would have made. It will be your 30th next year so we need to get raising this £100,000!!!  I have not been putting much on here or on your facebook because I sort of feel like I talk to you enough at home and I don't feel like sharing my private thoughts lately. It used to help so much in the past, it felt right but it does'nt anymore. So Sweetheart, I will always love you equal and could'nt love you more! Your Mum xxxx 

19.08.16 Time goes by, seconds, minutes,hours, days, weeks and years. Life goes on BUT not one day goes by that I don't think of you and wish I was watching your life unfold. I would have loved to have seen what choices you made and who with. You always knew your own mind and evaluated things two ways, in theory but also with your heart and instinct. You always had the best advice! 

You were such a Sweetheart Kim and it was  a pleasure to spend time with you. I miss you SO VERY much. I love you! Xxxxxxx your Mum

03.12.2014 Please check out Kim's slideshow (it tends to work best on a computer as opposed to I phones/devices etc and you do need ADOBE) by either clicking (copy and paste into your web browser https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gCs3SnKEPxE (please note that it won't work for some people OR alternativeley, click on the group photo of Kim and her friends in the photo gallery, which is actually a link to youtube and that should work for you (well worth trying) and thank you for taking the time out to think about Kim and Ashgate Hospice. I'm very grateful. I love you Kim xxx Mum 

03.12.2014 At this time of year, it is especially heart-warming to know that people are kind and generous enough to donate to Ashgate Hospice in memory of Kim. It is a time for us, as a family that brings back happy memories of Kim enjoying special times, opening presents & being the kind, thoughtful,  fun & generous young lady that she always was. It is also a difficult and emotional time that we have to each deal within our own ways. We try to stay positive, as Kim wanted that. It is sometimes easier said than done but we certainly do our best. I miss you Sweetheart. Love you big time and always equal xxx Your Mum xxx

11.09.201 Happy birthday Sweetheart. I finally found the white tv that you wanted for your room. I wish you were going to get to watch it. I only have the one promise left to fulfill that I made to you and that's our shed. You wont believe it Kim but its still standing! 

We are going to the Races to celebrate your life on Saturday. Looking forward to being with all our family and your (now ours too thank goodness) friends. 

I spent your birthday in a place we are both familiar with. It made me respect and admire you even more because I have to confess I was "a bit scared" I felt you with me! Becky took me and collected me and I'm staying with her and Danny. Ross and your Dad are coming for a take a way.

I'm so glad to be working back at Ashgate. Its where I belong. I think you would be proud of us all (most of the time!)

So Kim, on your 26th birthday I want you to know that I would give anything to have you here, I miss you so very badly and I couldn't love you more! Your Mum xxx

11.09.2013, A very special day in my life Kim because it's your 25th birthday. I try very hard not to, because it hurts really badly but I spend time wondering what you would be doing now, who you would be with, where you would be living, who your friends would be? Some of your friends are now married and some have children of their own. I am very happy for them. I feel as though you may have gone overseas after Uni and travelled a lot but we had a very close bond and I am fairly sure that you wouldn't have gone too far away, for too long. I think you would have gone but come back. That's ironic isn't it, I wish you could come back now! 

Kim, I don't want to write to you on your birthday, I want to hug you, I want to smell your perfume, I want to touch you and link arms with you and go shopping. I want to go to car boots, swimming and on holiday with you. I want to order Chinese's and watch the X Factor. I want to put furniture together then break the legs off it trying to move it, then laugh till we cry. I want you to teach me how to work my new phones or show me new apps. I want to do sponsored events with you and go for walks and meals and day's out. I want to sunbathe in the back garden (I remember them giving you that seriously high factor sun cream at the hospital!!! and your face when you put some on your arm) I really, really want to listen to you and ask for your fantastic advice because you loved me and you cared about me, as I did you. We could always be honest with each other and Kim I have to say that I even miss our hospital trips because that's when we really needed each other and bonded so deeply. We also had fun (and lots of times that we certainly didn't have fun but we did have each other through thick and thin) I hope you are back with The Flopster and Robbie because the bond you had with them was beautiful. Can you remember when they both managed to escape? Traumatising! We could laugh about it now though couldn't we? Robbie the rampant rabbit and Brack on that lovely guy's tie for a makeshift lead! Wish we could float on our backs in the sea (I always do that for us when I go on holiday but it's not the same without YOU!) I want to decorate with you. Your bedroom is still looking good girl!!! So many things I want to do with Kim... I could sit here all day and the list would never end but for now I can't. I will be able to one day again though.

I see very clearly that your inspiration and strength is living on in Becks and Ross, Katie and some of your friends and our family. They are different because of you and losing you has had a profound effect on us all but you will be proud of the way they have coped and taken their own parts of you forward in their lives. I know they would give anything to spend just one day with you again and I would love to get spend more time with each of them and do more things together. Becki and Ricki have a lovely little puppy called Billy, he is my Granddog and Becks business is doing really well. Ross is quite settled and doing well at the moment. I am watching with interest to see which path he is going to choose to go down in the near future because I think "about now" is when he will be making some important decisions. 

Kim, on your birthday, I want to say to you that I think of you every day and every night I look into those beautiful eyes of yours and gain strength and inspiration from you. I am looking forward to seeing our family and your friends (who I think you chose wisely and they were lucky to have you and you were lucky to have them. Fete as you would say) I am happy that you still mean so very much to all of them and of course us. That goes without saying.

Well I wasn't going to say much today because I am feeling rather lost for words in life lately. 

Today I am wishing you a very happy 25th birthday Kimberley, party like it's your birthday lol! as if you wouldn't!!! and until the day I am reunited with you, always know that I couldn't love you more and that I will always love you equal xxx Your Mum.

04.06.2013 Hi everyone! Thank you for taking the time out to look at Kim's Memorial Page on Just Giving. I just wanted to let you know that I am going to do the Ashgate Hospice Midnight Walk to remember Kim and try and raise much needed funds for Ashgate. I can't thank you all enough for your amazing support but most especially for remembering the beautiful, sweet, caring and fun loving girl that Kim was. I think of you every day Kim and I will think of you and remember our happy, special times together every step of that VERY long walk. So glad you were my girl Kim! I couldn't have loved you more and I will always love you equal Sweetheart. Your Mum

This page is a continuation of www.justgiving.com/inmemoryofKimTrickett1. Please visit this page to see previous posts and donations. 

24th of May 2012. Well The third Kimmy Charity Night raised the fantastic amount of £5,758.88!!!!

It really was a very special, fun filled, memorable night that was a fitting tribute to you and the beautiful person you were Kim. I started work at Ashgate on Monday. That smile Kim! I love you Sweetheart xxx your Mum 

26.03.2012. Missed you yesterday Sweetheart!

The third Kimmy Charity Night is on Saturday the 19th of May at Chester Street Club, Chester Street, Chesterfield, S40 1DL. Tickets are £10 each, which includes a large buffet, live entertainment, face painting, The Chili Butlers, fantastic raffle and tombola and our very own FULL Monty boys!! with a new routine again for this year and lots more! Come and help us raise much needed funds for Ashgate Hospice and have a great night in doing so! Hope to see you there!!!

4.3.2012 I have finally been able to submit the form to memorialize Kim's facebook page. There were lots of reasons it has been kept open, some people would understand, some would'nt, Kim certainly would and I feel so sad and it feels so final but the time has been coming for a while and I know it's yet one more (this was a major) thing I have to accept in losing Kim. It hurts! I love you Sweetheart xxx your Mum

20.02.2012 Please see pic 7 for details on items that we would really appreciate your help with. If anyone has any items in or around Chesterfield they are more than welcome to drop them off at Becki Trickett's salon (Hair, Heart & Soul, Chatsworth Road) or give them to me Tracie Holocuk or Caron Clark, Ross Trickett or anyone who knows us really! We have some great prizes already, including a 3 day French Activity Holiday @www.frenchactivityholidays.co m, a 32" flat screen, a town signed football shirt, 1 years free membership to Stavely Healthy Living Centre for 1 person, £100 in cash, large Radley overnight bag and lots, lots more! tickets for the third Kimmy's Charity Night will also be available to buy as from tomorrow! I love you Kim xxx your Mum 

8th of Feb 2012. Plans are well under way for the third Kimmy Charity Night 2012. People are already very kindly and generously donating raffle and tombola prizes which will really help to raise our total even more so for Ashgate Hospice in your memory Kim, . THANK YOU SO MUCH TO YOU ALL!

Aunty Caz & I went to the Ashgate Christmas Fair today, we went and sat in the garden with a picnic and I said, would'nt it be amazing if a Butterfly came here today at this time of year. We sat & talked, ate our food, then went towards the path at the end of the garden and... there you were! you never did let me down. Thank you for that my little sweetheart! I will always love you equal Kim xxx your Mum

Kim, I would give ANYTHING!!! to have you back in my life. I CRAVE your company, your inspiration, your strength and your beautiful smile and laugh. Sweetheart, I miss you so very much and I will always LOVE YOU EQUAL xxx your Mum

Happy birthday my little sweetheart. 23 today and your Mum is sitting here wondering where you are, who you're with and what your doing?

I know I'm supposed to be strong and positive but I decided last night/this morning, that when I stayed up until after 12 o'clock to put £23 on here to mark your birthday and it decided, as it has in the past, to not publish my message to you and put my donation down to "anonymous" to be pretty fed up. Actually, it really got me down. In the grand scheme of losing you, I guess I should'nt let it really but is it too much to ask.

I can't hug you, kiss you, spend the day with you, laugh with you or even buy you a present. I would have just liked to have sent you that special message. Ho hum, I know what you would have said. You would have said "Trace, don't worry about it, I know you tried!" more important things to worry about or care about hey Kim!

I would dearly love to know about that "incident" last night??? was it you? how could it not have been. It scared me though.

I am finding it a bit hard to think straight today. You would be realistic and logical. I miss you keeping me sane, grounded and putting things in perspective for me. Only ever you that could do that. We listened to each other did'nt we love.

One thing that is comforting me today is that smile. That really makes me wonder too Kim. It also gives me immense comfort and hope for when you come to get me (bring Flop if you can) no fear. I often think about our convo's in Ashgate. They were'nt easy were they. We coped. We coped with just about everything together (nearly)

I will always be grateful for every second we had. I will always try and be positive and do positive things in your memory but I can't do it every day. Your anniversary and birthday should be no different to the fact that I miss you and love you so much every single day and night but they are. Horrible thing to say but I wish them a way. I believe they are just too painful and too hard to be positive on. I'm sorry for that.

So my little sweetheart, I am sending you all my love, yesterday, today and tomorrow. I am saying a very special happy birthday to you!

Kimberley Trickett, your Mum will always love you equal! xxx always and forever.....

28th of July 2011 ... At last.... finally, after trying everything !!!! I can actually once again update Kim's page! what a relief! 

Right, where to start, well we have a Kimmy fashion fund raiser which has kindly been arranged by Spire Face Painting and Sweet-A-Fayre. It is being held on Wed the 24th of October at The Riverside Club at Chesterfield. A cheap and fun night with amazing bargains to be had. Once you've been to one, you'll want to go to the next and the next!

For all us lot who are not going on holiday, on bank holiday Sunday the 28th, we have the Kimmy All Dayer at The Star pub on Chatsworth Road. A great day out for all the family with lots of things to see, do and buy. With great entertainment starting at 12 noon. Please check out the posters on facebook or in local shops for details of which acts we have and all the stalls etc! It's going to be a great day! 

Both events are raising money for Kim's memorial fund at Ashgate Hospice.

My friend Chrissy Hancock (Arabella Star*) has written a fabulous children’s book called Augustus The Chatsworth Mouse and is donating a percentage of the profits to Kim's fund. Arabella's first batch of books has already sold out and is in great demand. Some of the copies have already hit America and I am very proud of Arabella for achieving her dream in life and for giving children the very special gift of her wonderful imagination, caring nature and considerable talents.

Thank you to my lovely friends and family who raised fantastic amounts of sponsor money for Kim's fund by completing the very grueling 13 mile Midnight Walk. Trust me, until you have walked 13 miles in the middle of the night, you do not know what physical pain is. We deserved every penny of that sponsor money and I am proud to call you my dear, loved friends and dear, loved family! Thank you so much to all you lovely people who so very kindly sponsored us!  we will always be grateful to you for every single penny you give so generously, to remember Kim and to help others at Ashgate.

Thank you to everyone who is so very kindly sending their un-wanted items to sell to raise money for Kim's fund. Again I am so grateful for every bag that arrives on my doorstep and I always do my absolute best to get as much as I possibly can for your dontaed items. 

I will be getting an updated total in the near future, so will be posting on here and on facebook for you to see how much nearer to my personal target of £100,000 we are!!