On April 27th 2025 (which incidentally also happens to be my 35th birthday!), I will be running The London Marathon raising vital funds for the incredible charity Tommy's.

There are no words meaningful enough to describe the all-consuming pain Peter and I felt when we discovered that my first pregnancy had ended in miscarriage. All of our hopes and dreams were pulled from beneath us in an instant and our hearts were completely shattered.

I suffered what is referred to as a 'missed or silent miscarriage', where our baby had stopped developing but my body did not recognise the loss. Naturally off we went to our 12 week scan planning for the future and brimming with excitement, completely unaware of what was about to unfold. When we left the hospital following my surgery a few days later we were broken and in that moment, I thought I would never be able to put myself through the possibility of losing a baby again.

Fate had other ideas however and we have since been blessed with 3 absolute miracles who are quite literally our entire world. What isn't openly talked about enough though, is the anxiety and mental health implications that follow loss into subsequent pregnancies and the postpartum period. It can be, as I found it, absolutely crippling. I dreaded every scan for fear of bad news, refused to download apps to mark off weekly developmental milestones in case we never made them, was petrified every waking moment that something would go wrong again and would repeatedly convince myself hour by hour that they had, all of course whilst keeping a smile plastered on my face to the outside world so as not to 'tempt fate' into making something bad happen. In hindsight I'm so sad that I never got to enjoy any of the excitement and pure magic of pregnancy because the anxiety after loss is so suffocating.

Still, we stand here today as parents, a title we will never take for granted. Whilst we will in no circumstance get over the hurt and devastation of miscarriage, we know wholeheartedly just how lucky we are to be a healthy family of 5 and it is my deepest wish that every person on their journey, ends up with their own individual miracle ending.

It is for that reason I share our story with you and take on this huge challenge. You are not alone. I passionately support the work Tommy's do to provide expert advice and fund pioneering research to prevent stillbirth, miscarriage and premature birth. Tommy's exists to STOP the heartbreak and devastation of baby loss and make pregnancy and birth safe - for EVERYONE. The stats speak for themselves and it is tragic to admit that if this hasn't happened to you, it will have happened to someone you know.

We must fight for better, for our angels, for ourselves and for the future.

You’re helping save babies' lives. Please give generously, your support means the world to me.

08/11/17 - My angel, every step will be for you.