For reason's that I never thought would turn my world upside down! When working for a company in a State I'm new at and have no family no ,friends the feeling of lonelyness and lost on ways I can't find words for. But going to work kept me focused and wanting to find just one person to laugh with and help with needing to know its ok to hurt inside the way i do and want my kids to hug and cook for again. So many days of wondering if I should be moving on after 3 years of being here or if im going crazy? With this straggler i deal with I never seen this coming at me. Who would of thought that loving your job and what you do could come to a break stopping nightmare. When one person has the control to rip your what little you had to hang on to right out from beneath you. At my job I was going to HR for 1.5 years on complaints of a coworker harassing me every day to the point I started getting my anxiety back with panic attacks and had to get FMLA to help with not losing my job over it.With all the sit down come to Jesus meetings i had with supervisors from all 3 shifts and Team leads with what and how he was making me miserable.Taking my tools when I was at break,screaming and pointing his finger in my face to the loudness of his voice made other coworkers stop and look to see what was going on.Starting rumors that I was on drugs.which lead to noticing that taking a step away from my area and into few would be an embaresment i cant put i to words.So with that I would go to breaks and go home after everyone else was done with breaks and left the parking lot to go home. Now the lonelyness is at work also. Keeping all this to myself not wanting my girls to know how im not only falling apart little by little but now its at the point that I'm losing Holly in the form of I held my head high and always wanted to make my girls proud of me even if I was just a factory worker.Not ever putting myself in front of anyone first. Bringing army pants etc.etc. to people at work that wanting them when they knew i was going on vacation and could find them at flea markets.Even made alterations for those that needed them.Now I find myself wanting so bad to Find Holly again and I don't even have anyway of knowing where to start looking!! Knowing she's in there but can't quite get the needed tools we're born with to reach her. Now I just go to work and come home worried that if I go out will I break down and lose it while in public. At this point who would think that HR the only one person you thought was on your side would make it to where you didn't tell her anything anymore. Not only did I know that but I also let her know I would never come to her again on the harrasing that wouldn't stop. Two weeks later while working by myself because at this time everyone thinks I'm on drugs so they won't work with or beside me anymore. I was called into the office with plant manager sitting there also was accused of sexual Harrasment on the guy that I spent reporting to HR on for 1.5 years Because of respecting him in accordance to company policy I lost .you job. I'm explaining a story on what my work life was.But the point is what really happened was what happened behind the scenes. Who really has the words or the right way to put them when everything you at 59 years old was so kept together and felt good about what,how,and put the importantance of respect to others and Keeping your faith in doing what's right a everyday part of who you are just be gone.And worst part is I want Holly back and I can't reach her.Now that this is my life right now I'm going to lose my car insurance. So now what? All the bills on on life in general are coming in and I can't pay any of them. Along with my rent.But to make this all come together in knowing that this to shall pass faith I have,I just want to find Holly and go home to my girls and feel their checks and hold them so tight and never let go. To put an END to the story All I want to put down on paper before IT says the END.

AND SHE NEVER GAVE UP LOOKING FOR HOLLY

THE END

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