10 years ago finding out I was pregnant finally all my dreams of becoming a mum had come true. The pregnancy was going well until hitting the 20 week scan, lying there listening to the heart beat of my baby and then the radiographer demeanour changing she then looked and said “I just need to get the Doctor” the Doctor confirmed my babies feet and legs were not growing properly.

I then had to wait a further week for an intense scan but knowing in my heart if it was just his legs and feet that would be fine I could cope with that. The day arrived of the scan and lying there with 6 professionals around me who then informed me not only were his feet and legs not formed properly but also his back and he had only 3 chambers in his heart. They looked and said we advise that you terminate the pregnancy. This is when I found out I was having a baby boy.

The next 3 days were awful knowing I had to deliver my baby. Did I make the right decision? I don’t know I went on what the professionals advice. Since then every date, anniversary I remember what I was doing in 2013. November 17th the Christmas tree goes up to mark his birthday.I don’t think anyone will quite understand the impact of loosing a baby everything around you is a memory of what you should have had. He would have been 10 this year starting a new school. I love and miss him. 

Throughout the month of October and in support of Baby Loss Awareness week, I will be taking part in Miles in Memory 2023 to raise vital funds in aid of Aching Arms.

All donations are gratefully received and will have a big impact in offering comfort and support to bereaved families.

If you are a UK tax payer, please remember to Gift Aid your donation, which boosts it by 25% at no extra cost to you, and makes a big difference to the charity.

Thank you so much for your donation!