Things have always been good for our family, I have always been able to fall pregnant quickly and we have 4 amazing daughters, but the last five years have been absolutely awful. the year started so well (after the years we have had it did anyway) on the 8th Jan we discovered we were pregnant, all sorts went through our minds as we had an early miscarriage in oct and also lost another 3 babies 1 at 9wks our baby boy Teddy at 15wks and a baby girl ivy-Rose at 14+4 wks. The hospital were fantastic and I was put on daily injections and daily pessaries to help keep this baby in there and alive, I went for regular scans and all looked fine every time, I got past the scary 9 weeks 12 weeks 14 weeks 15 weeks, at 17 weeks we found out we were having another beautiful baby girl. We were over the moon, we named her Willow Rose Brown, our youngest daughter Summer (6) was so excited finally gonna be a big sister she said, I can't wait to push her around in her pram mum, during week 17 my bump and also started to pop out, I felt and looked pregnant, we got to 18 weeks and I started feeling Willow moving around such a fab feeling after my losses, then at 18 weeks and 2 days, the movements stopped all day I couldn't find her heartbeat on our Doppler, we went to the hospital and at 9pm on an ultrasound it was confirmed by two doctors and two midwives our baby's heart had stopped beating, my world stopped turning the room felt like it was getting smaller and I just let out an awfully scream of pain from my heart, we now had to go home and break our children's hearts my 6 year old summers words will haunt me forever, "mummy I'm not going to be a big sister anymore" and she's right in a way even tho she will always be a big sister to her siblings in heaven, how could I put them through this again, so we are trying to raise some money to help towards a headstone for our little girl Willow and to remember our other babies in heaven.